Saturday, September 30, 2006

A thought provoking Poem I read today..

Just for this day

Just for this morning, I am going to smile whenever I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.

Just for this morning, I will let you wake up softly, all rumpled in your flannel and I will hold you until you are ready.

Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say you're beautiful.

Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.

Just for this morning, I am going to eat a huge breakfast , with bacon eggs, toast and waffles, and you don't have to eat any.

Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that 100 piece puzzle together.

Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the garden blowing bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up or who you might have been before your diagnosis.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to 'fix' things.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you put all kinds of barettes in my hair, and put lipstick on my face, and I will tell you how pretty you have made me look.

Just for this afternoon I will take you to McDonalds and buy us both a Happy meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born, and how much we love you.

Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the bathtub and not get angry when you throw water over your sister's head.

Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch swing and count all the stars.

Just for this evening, I will bring you glasses of water, and snuggle beside you for three hours and miss my favorite show on t.v.

Just for this evening, When I kneel down to pray, I will simply be grateful for all that I have and not ask for anything, except just one more day.
copyright. 1999. Sally Meyer

Beautiful words. Make me realise afresh why I home educate - because I don't want to be like that for "just one day", I want my parenting to always be about that. And it makes my heart ache even more, when I think of those words in the context of my beloved Samuel, who is so misunderstood sometimes - including by us his family.

The other day he spent 2 hours going around on the bus with his Dad. There, in his element, when focused on one of his "obsessions", he is a different child. In a rare moment of sharing what it is like to be in his world, he said to his Dad "I got very confused at the Aquarium the other day, Dad, didn't I?" What had happened was that he had a full meltdown in the shop afterwards as he just couldn't decide what to buy. Giving a child like Samuel some money and saying "buy whatever you like" is, with hindsight, cruelty. His tears of distress at the end absolutely cut me to pieces and I vowed to try harder to see things from his point of view.

On Monday he is due to have his assessment at the Pheonix Children's Resource Centre in Bromley. He is very concerned about it, and neither of us know exactly what it will entail. Please remember him in your prayers.

2 comments:

stef_n_dawniy said...

yes i've heard this lovely poem before Ann, lovely isn't it :)

Jules said...

Hi hunny,
I have read through that poem many times and feel as you do, why should it be for one day? I do many of those things in everyday life. Sad.

Hoping the assessment goes well. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.